Look. I told you not to freaking read it. Unless you can keep your mouth shut, not judge me, and not ask questions unless you actually care, GO AWAY.
This is the result of me having not dated in a long time and being ridiculous because there is someone who fits close to all that I want. Here are my thoughts on this situation. Candice, just…I’m embarrassing myself here so don’t read it. Unless you want to. I mean, I do say some nice things about you. But I don’t even know. Just read it.
Ok, so. A friend is trying to hook me up with one of her exes. I’m just still not all too sure about how I feel about this. Her ex is really into music, just like me. Of course when I realized this I got really excited. But is the ex as excited? God. I think too much. These are the thoughts controlling my mind for the past week. She is beautiful. She is in love with music. She plays instruments. She can sing/dance. She is really sweet. I hardly know her. She loves musicals and classical music. She is very strongly opinionated in politics and is a gay rights/feminists/pro-choice activist. Everything my mother is against. Ha! Oh lord, if my mother knew. She though, does not look at relationships the way I do. She doesn’t like relationships, she doesn’t like being too close, she doesn’t like commitment. She doesn’t think a relationship in high school can go anywhere. I simply listened to her state these facts and agreed/disagreed. I on the other hand, would love a relationship with the right person, I want my partner to be my best friend, and I’m all about commitment and long term connections. She says “hit it and quit it”, because sex is human nature and simply pleasure. I say “love it and hit it when you’re ready then stay”, because sex is an intimate connection meant to create mental bonds between lovers. She doesn’t know me yet, I don’t know her. But I can already see us becoming best friends, myself falling hopelessly in love with her, wanting to keep her, hooking up, and getting heart broken. So I’m gonna see where this goes even though I’ll get hurt unless I charm her enough to really be with me. God, She is beautiful. I just had to let that out. We haven’t even physically met yet. She is just everything I’ve desired for the past year, so I’m sort of freaking out.